The time has come for me to Define my kink for the last two days. i think it took a month or more to write responses to all the questions but it has been profound and eye opening. i know i am submissive, but never really took the time to contemplate what that means to me or how it impacts my life. If you haven’t been defining your kink as a submissive along with me i encourage you to back track in my Blog to find all 30 Days of questions. Don’t rush through them one right after the other. Take a day or so between writing your responses so that you can ponder the question and then write about it as thoroughly as you can.
Is pain or humiliation (spankings for example) a part of your submission? What is your relationship to it? Do you embrace it as a part of your submission, tolerate it as necessary or have some other type of relationship with it?
Over the last twenty five years i have experienced many types of pain mostly from medical issues and surgical interventions. Some of it mild; some excruciating. What I can tell Y/you is the unintentional, internal pain from illness or surgery is different from the intentional, consensual infliction on pain in a BDSM setting.
As a submissive i know that there is a beginning to the pain and a definite endpoint to it. In this type of scene i am consenting and anticipating the pain. i know that if the pain surpasses my tolerance level, i can, with one word, stop the infliction of the pain.
My relationship with the intentional pain is a fondness for the attention of the Dom and the feeling of total submission to His control. In ways i embrace it, i accept it, i tolerate it, and sometimes i long for it.
i do stop short of calling myself a “pain pig” as some people do. i am not into the pain just for the pain. For me it comes with a purpose and is the result of two M/men coming together to explore T/their kink together.
Thanks for reading,