my dream of beginning a new life in a new country with a new lover has come to an end. i woke to a new day released from the tight grip depression had on me. i realize my life is not dark and repressive as i had built up in my period of sadness and self pity.
i actually like most things in my life even if some aspects need a healthy nipple tweaking and adjustment.
So what turned my thinking and mood around? First, a slight increase in the dose of an antidepressant medication. Second, a great therapist who referred me to a Codependence Anonymous group. And third, meeting with a religious leader to discuss her views of aging, declining health, accumulating multiple illnesses, death, whether or not God exists, and the purpose of life. i gained a new perspective, and felt that grip of depression loosening.
i ended my long distance online fantasy relationship. And, i am working on regaining some power and a voice in my existing long term relationship.
Dreams and fantasies are wonderful. They add hope, excitement and vigor to life. But, W/we do eventually have to wake up and come back to reality.
Therefore, it is incumbent upon U/us to find O/our joy, O/our purpose, and O/our happiness. No one else can give them to U/us.
If Y/you find Y/yourself getting stuck, feeling increasingly sad, isolating yourself, or recognizing that Y/you are depressed, please seek help. Find a therapist to help Y/you identify and work on issues. If Y/you need medication intervention see a psychiatrist as well. Depression is a common form of mental illness. And it is highly treatable. Get help if Y/you need it!
Thanks for reading,
boy stray
