Today i am writing responses to two questions.
Has your submission increased or decreased over time? Have you ever had to renegotiate your submission due to a change in your feelings or circumstance?
i can’t really say my submission has increased or decreased over time, but i am aware of it evolving. It is something i am more aware and accepting of as my exposure to the lifestyle deepens.
i have never had to renegotiate my submission.
Is there a physical position that makes you feel most submissive?
Usually i assume a passive military stance with legs apart and hands behind my back and my head down. Also there was a yoga position i learned the other day (my first class) where i was face down on the floor with knees bent under my body and arms out straight. He called it something like resting baby…i felt very submissive while in that position.
But generally i feel submissive most of the time.
Day 14 – Today, i decided to answer two questions because number 14 is really easy to answer.
Does religion have any bearing on your decision to submit?
If not, are you familiar with religious based submission and do you view it as similar to other types of submission or dissimilar?
Don’t know enough about it to have an answer for you.
Day 15 – Has your submission evolved over time?
Yes i can say that it has.
If so, how has it evolved for you?
Back in the day…1979, it was about the look of a hot man in Leather…the hyper-masculinity. While in that gay Mecca a guy tried fisting me but was unsuccessful. Also there was an instance of piss play.
Then, on returning to my hometown i played with candles, needles, poppers and genital torture a couple times.
So, i wouldn’t say i was submissive but more kinky. When i fully claimed my proud bottom-ness i began to realize that i was truly a submissive.
Now, i am working toward total submission to a Dom, but if that doesn’t happen i will be content to just being a submissive in play only.
i really would like to work on becoming a real service sub and to increase my tolerance & find my limit with pain.
If not (or if you are just starting out) how might you see or imagine it evolving in the future?