Initially i wanted a full time, 24/7 Dom/sub relationship. i wanted to “live” the Lifestyle. Still do! But kinda giving up on that…seems like it’s just a pipe dream at this point. my former Mentor asked me a couple times if i was interested in living it or just in it for the play. i enthusiastically said live it. But, now i guess i would have to say play.
In the couples years i have been working at it, i haven’t even played, let alone developed a Lifestyle or relationship. But as an homage to my affinity for Leather i wear a leather strap around my wrist and always wear my wide leather belt no matter what else i may be wearing or where i am going.
How do Y/you all make it look so easy and natural? What is the best part of living the Lifestyle? How am I gonna get me some of that Lifestyle??
i ask that tongue in cheek.
i know how, and i am working on it. It’s just harder and taking longer than i expected.
Tonight i reached out to an established, well known and well liked member of the gay Leather BDSM community. i asked if He would consider having coffee with me. Not to hookup or play. i am definitely not his type of boy. And He already has His boy. my goal would be just to get to know him better and have him get to know me. That way perhaps He could become a friend and support for me. Also i thought maybe He would feel comfortable sponsoring me or recommending someone who could sponsor me for the local club for Sirs and boys.
The club had a play and demo weekend at a gay campground last weekend. i had hoped to go but couldn’t. There is another in April, and i have decided i am going! It has become goal and “bucket list” item for me. Recently i was asked what was on my bucket list. i said nothing because i believed i had been everywhere i wanted to go and seen everything i had wanted to see. But, now i decided to rethink that. Some things on my list involve BDSM, LEATHER, PLAY, and others are trips, cruises, events, as well as beginning yoga classes and getting & giving tantric massages.
Another goal for 2017 is the start of a part time play relationship. Any other ideas for what i can add to my bucket list?
Wish me luck.
Thanks for reading,